Dear Baby,

I am starting to feel you move more and it is so exciting for me. It makes you seem more real. I was worried because I didn't feel you move for the longest time. During my ultrasound they confirmed that the placenta is attached to the front of my uterus which makes it harder to feel the baby. I was so sad to hear this. Feeling the baby move is one of my favorite parts of pregnancy. It is such an amazing feeling. The doctor said I would feel you eventually, but it would always feel a little "blunted" because the placenta is like a big pillow. Now I feel you quite a bit and I love it.

I'm wondering more and more if you are a boy or a girl. I'm not sure I like this whole being surprised thing. I was feeling pretty sure are a boy. But then last night I had a dream that I had a baby girl and now the feeling of a baby girl is fresh in my mind so I'm not sure anymore. I know that either way I will be so happy and I will love you to pieces. Your brother will too, but it might not be as instant of an adjustment for him as it will for me if you are a girl. He is convinced you are a boy. He spent all say in nursery last week telling his teachers about his new little brother that was coming. He was so sure of it that the teachers were surprised to learn that we hadn't actually learned if you were a boy or a girl. But Max loves Maggie to pieces so I am sure that either way you will be loved by him too.

Keep growing baby.  I love you!

Mom

Dear Baby,

This morning I had to be at an early morning meeting across town. Your brother and sister were still sleeping when I left the house so I peaked at them before I left and gave them each a kiss. Then I was in my car on my drive across town and I felt you move. The thought came to my mind, "Good. All three of my kids are safe." It is amazing to me how quickly I started feeling like a mother of three. I think that it was in September, when you were just a few weeks along, and I was at the park with your brother and sister. I looked around the playground and located Max, then Maggie. And then I felt like I needed to locate a third child. I remembered you were still inside me, but that strength of my feeling that I was responsible for three kids overwhelmed me. Dear baby, you are already very much a part of your family.

Love,
Mama