Dear Baby,

It is about time for you to be born. I am ready. Or as ready as I can be. It seems like you have been growing in me forever. It is sweet for me to think back to that day in early August when I learned about you. It was a beautiful day. My grief about losing my sister was still so fresh and the thought of a new life growing inside of me filled me with so much hope and something happy amidst my sorrow. I know God is the one in charge of sending you to me, but it sort of felt like my sister had something to do with it too. And now, nine months later it is time for me to meet you. In a lot of ways I still don't really comprehend that you are coming. Sometimes I look down at my tummy in motion and think in awe that there is a baby in there. I try to wrap my head around it, but I can't. Still, I know that I will love you. Instantly. And more and more each day. I know that you will bring so much joy to my life. I have all the anxiety that comes with welcoming a new baby into your life, but I know that I will never ever regret having you. I already love you. You are already mine.  I will miss you being inside of me, but I will love having you in my arms.

I hope to meet you soon baby!

Love,
Mama

Dear Baby,

Sometimes it hits me that I am going to have a new baby. Like the other day when I was in a meeting at work and you were moving so much that my belly was visibly moving. I was in awe as I watched it and suddenly it hit me: There's a baby in there! You would think that 8 months into the pregnancy I would understand this clearly by now but it is something that is strangely hard to wrap my head around. After the amazement of realizing there is a baby inside my belly comes a new even more powerful realization. You are not just a baby, you are another Max and another Maggie, which is to say that you are a little person that is going to rock my world and weave your way so much into my heart that I will sometimes have to catch my breath when I think of the wonderment that you are mine.

I'll be meeting you soon baby and I am excited! Are you a boy or a girl? Will you have hair? How big will you be? What will your name be? I'm so excited to learn these things and to hold you in my arms and start getting to know the amazing little person that you already are.

I love you baby!!!!!

Love,
Mom